A topic that I’ve posted about over the years is the deliberate destruction of public schools, especially since the covid onslaught. I know I’ve blogged about it here too. I am just so disgusted with all of it. I feel the anger in my throat and I want to spit it out on every offender, accomplice, and enabler. With regard to the sexual abuse angle being magnified in the media, which is another method of attack that republican lawmakers use to privatize everything to hell, I was shocked to find out how correct I have been about the uptick I’ve seen in the media in these last few years – in 2022 alone, 349 public school educators were arrested for sex crimes against children.

I was thinking about this once again this morning and without going too far down memory lane, I was able to recall five teachers in my school who groomed and preyed on students in my class and maybe one or two grades above and below mine. I had heard rumors of a few more, but I didn’t have direct knowledge of their alleged misdeeds. To help put this into perspective, my graduating class consisted of fewer than forty students.

These loser perverts figure out who to go after, who is the most vulnerable and easy to take advantage of; not much has changed in 25-30 years in that regard. One semi-permanent substitute teacher who eventually obtained a regular full time teaching position, and who was coincidentally filling in for our female teacher on maternity leave who seduced her male students, tried flirting with me and several other of my female classmates. I had two very close friends and we three together had a strong understanding of our worth and who we were – we were not easily taken in by some crew cut, corn fed motherfucker with a wife, children, mortgage, and an SUV on about our “auras” at 14. Turned out, he and some of the football players would gang bang one of the designated “sluts” who survived the foster system pretty regularly.

Another girl he sucked in had a “reputation” even though nearly everyone was fairly promiscuous among their own peers. What’s the difference, right? Can’t students just be left alone to fuck around with each other without these insane power dynamics coming into play? Well, no. That’s not how things work, especially in smaller districts that seem to be systematically designed to plug drooling sexually deviant motherfuckers into. We were fair-weather friends, partially due to the fact I found her sexual appetite kind of off putting and her intellectual and creative pursuits painfully lacking. She was sloppy and didn’t care too much about who knew it, except for her parents it seems!

I found out that she had been using my house as a drop off point – her parents had a farm several miles out of town and she had her dad drop her off near my house to allegedly walk to school with me so she could go fuck this corn fed prick in the mornings after his wife went to work and before he had to be at school. He lived just a few blocks down from me. That’s not the part that was some utterly alien shock to me – it was that he nearly broke a car door by violently slamming it on her, attached to the vehicle we were both sitting in while going to see some friends playing a pickup game at the football field after school, when she told him she was done with the arrangement and she had started dating a classmate. Like most kids do.

I don’t recall how it all came to a head, but it didn’t result in further violence against her, thankfully. He was still a teacher there when I checked around 5-6 years ago. No one seems to care. One of my former coaches and phys ed teacher is now married to the student he had his second or third elicit affair with. No one there bats an eye at it, apparently. She’s a grand pooh-bah of “community organizing” now, dragging around this half-dead corpse of a “heart throb” girls fantasized about 20-30 years ago no one thinks twice of now to take her Insta photos. I mean what the fuck? Why is this normal? It’s just weird. And the cycle is on repeat as she models this for girls assigned to her care between fashioning their cheerleading hair bows.

If the few people I still keep up with from those days are surprised I haven’t been back, and that I never, ever, EVER want to go back, they are fooling only themselves, and they should know it. The cult of the american small town is something I am still recovering from. It is sad to have seen friends who escaped its assigned roles for a time be sucked back into it with the confusion and destruction that covid fascism wrought.

These fucking freaks, “teachers” – abusers and enablers alike – think they can look me up on Facebook and add me as their “friend”. They have over the years; I added one who virtually salivated over me “getting older” in my damn 20s (what?) then blocked them, and blocked them all. I want to spit in their faces, shove them off a cliff, and leave them for the vultures. Who the fuck do they think they are? They have, in some cases, irreparably damaged already abused children who were in need of leadership and guidance and this can have profound generational effects. That is not to mention that children are entitled to freedom and not to be lorded over by absolute weirdos with unresolved traumas and sexual dysfunctions of their own.

I am so goddamn tired of all of it – I just want this to be taken seriously and ended within my lifetime. These people walk among us with no justice, with no shame or guilt or any inkling that they could face consequences. And because we were all institutionally forced into one place for a limited amount of time, we’re expected to shrug it off because that’s just the way some people are. Just accept this or that mask of who someone is supposed to be. Well it is unacceptable. And if it comes crashing down on them due to the steady dismantling we see before our eyes or revolutionary overhaul, then I and the others they damaged more personally may be vindicated. Maybe then they will come to terms with how their crimes blunted the potential of bright and innocent children to fight for their place in this world against all odds and a bloodthirsty ruling class. Maybe not, but their pathetic little reign over innocents will at least come to an end.